Author Archive: BlueMoonPagan

Flashbackapalooza

Trigger warning.  Just sayin’. First, let me just say that PTSD sucks.  Big hairy donkey balls.  Today, it destroyed a playful moment with my kids. I was in my bedroom, folding clothes.  My daughter was doing dishes in the kitchen, which is adjacent to my bedroom.   She and I had had an argument earlier, …

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Upward and Onward!

I’ve been having a hard time moving on from Bad Things.  I’m trying, but it doesn’t really feel like I’ve progressed very far.  I think it’s because unless I’m actively doing something specific, I feel stagnant.  Kinda like I’m just running in place. I think that in order to move forward in a way that …

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Graduation Day

This Thursday is a day I’ve waited a long time for. My son is going to graduate high school. I am so proud of him. He’s overcome a lot of obstacles and hardships throughout his life. The hardest? Dealing with his father. I was 17 years old and about 4 months pregnant when his father …

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I Am Not a Fetish

I’ve been thinking about something for a few days now, and it’s been bothering me.   “I’m not a chubby chaser.”    I was having a conversation earlier this week with a customer from work.  I was shopping downtown, and ran into him.  He’s one of those types that just gives off this really skeevy …

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Forgiving The Rapist

…but not for him.  For me. I saw him today.  At my doctors’ office.   He was there with his daughter and his wife.  They were going in as I was coming out. At first, I immediately felt like I was going to vomit.  Then… he asked if we could talk for a minute.   …

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Mixed-Up Mothers’ Day

I never enjoyed Mothers’ Day growing up.  You see, I didn’t have a mother.  Or a father, but that’s a story for another day.  I always felt left out.  All my friends had mothers, and I didn’t.   I always wanted one, though.  My own left when I was very young, and I felt that …

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Grieving

Not much witty to say here today, just a bit (ok, a LOT) of introspection. Yesterday, I would have been 34 weeks pregnant. If I didn’t lose her, that is. My sweet baby has been on my mind a lot lately. I’m not really sure how to describe how I feel, except that I am …

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People, Poverty and Phones (or the Woman on Welfare doesn’t have an iPhone)

Originally posted on Sunflower Chalice:
This morning I woke up, and I as I tend to do, after centering prayer and meditation, I checked through email, texts, Twitter and Facebook.  I’d feel bad about this except a friend has explained to me this is the modern equivalent of heading down to the corner coffee shop…

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Solitude, Deep Thoughts, and a Fat Ass

So here I sit in a hotel suite.  I’m at the kitchen island, and I’ve just polished off (by myself!!) a whole bottle of pink champagne.  Good stuff, by the way.  I’ll be buying THAT again, for sure! Anyway, I’ve been super-stressed for quite some time now.  With the encouragement of a friend, I decided …

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Originally posted on Successify!:
This article is from Chiara Fucarino. Enjoy! Disclaimer: This article is not intended to address those with clinical depression or other mental illnesses. There are two types of people in the world: those who choose to be happy, and those who choose to be unhappy. Contrary to popular belief, happiness doesn’t…

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