Author Archive: BlueMoonPagan

Loyalty

I’m a bit dopey on pain meds at the moment, but I’m going to do my best to be as coherent as possible here.  Gotta get my feelings out.   Loyalty.  That’s a word I’ve been thinking about a lot lately.  I see people posting memes about it on Facebook and such, and I think …

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The Good Submissive

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The Perpetual Battle 

Depression. I talk about it a lot.  Now, I’m not talking about the occasional sad feeling.  i’m talking about that deep, soul-crushing dark hole, where you can’t even imagine what the light looks like. I mean utter hopelessness and despair.  THAT kind of sadness.  It’s had a recurring role in my life for as long …

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My Personal Independence Day

The following is something I posted to my friends on my facebook page on January 28th, 2012.  It’s intensely personal and uncomfortable to read, but necessary to put the rest of my thoughts that follow into context. (I am putting my thoughts down in writing on advice from a therapist. Sometimes it’s not very coherent, …

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Depression. It sucks.

In my goal to track my self-talk more, I’ve been making note of random thoughts of mine as they occur, good or bad.  These cover the past 24 hours or so, minus work stuff.  I’m feeling better in this moment, though.  It’s truly amazing how just getting my thoughts out in a semi-organized form helps …

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Things I Am Afraid Of

Slugs, snails, and other slimy critters.  They utterly disgust me.  I will turn into a screeching crazy person if one comes anywhere near me. The dark.  Really.  I always find myself walking just a little bit faster when it’s dark.  Even in my own home. Scary rides.  Which is strange, because before I became a …

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Random Bits of Weirdness In Which Michelle Trips Balls

I’ve been pretty ill for the last couple of weeks, and when I have a really high temperature, my mind tends to go to some strange places. The following are just a few of those places: * A spider crawling on my wall became an assassin hired by my daughter to kill me for my …

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What’s the Opposite of “Anniversary?”

I’m having some trouble organizing my thoughts, so this post will most likely be a bit scattered.  Sorry.  It will also be extremely TMI and quite possibly triggering for sexual assault survivors.  Again, sorry.  This is a very rough time of year for me.  I’m starting this post on 11/09/2013.  One month away from the …

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Yes, I’m an Angry White Lady

So I received a comment from a “friend” that I get far too angry about things I have no control over. Things I can’t change, as just one person. My question for them is this… When is a good time to get angry? Really, that is not a rhetorical question…I’d like to hear the answer. …

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Twelve Habits of Happy, Healthy People Who Don’t Give a Shit About Your Inner Peace

Twelve Habits of Happy, Healthy People Who Don’t Give a Shit About Your Inner Peace.

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